Sitting here waiting for time to pass and wondering about the next step in this BJJ journey of mine. There is a definite part of me that can totally see me hanging up my Gi’s and completely walking away… and then I think dude, you spent 5 years of your life dedicated to learning this martial art to do what… Quit?!
I have to think about who and how I got to where I am now, all the way back to when I first started back in January 2009 at Elite MMA in Wichita Falls, TX. It was cut throat and unless you really wanted to be there you wouldn’t make it… those guys became the ones who taught me to be strong, and keep fighting even when I felt I couldn’t go on. Then I think about the small MMA community of women. Thinking back to when I first put a Gi on when I went to Hillary Williams very first female seminar at Peak Performance. That led to me going to a women’s open mat at Travis Lutter’s gym in 2010 where I met someone who would become a silent cheerleader, sponsoring and supporting my continuing training. While at the present time there is no support or encouragement to continue training there were supporters in the beginning and continue to show their support silently.
The time has come where I need to stop asking “What can I learn from this person or that seminar”, but rather is there something I can do as a higher ranked female belt to pass on, can I become a leader. There will be more new female to this sport and it would be a shame if I did not contribute my knowledge to the next generation. While I’m walking alone on this journey at the moment, I can’t help but wonder if it is time for me to step up and contribute what I can solo. A decision that doesn’t come over night and has been on the back burner for at least two years when I was going to start up a women’s only class in my hometown. Being told that it is very apparent that I have missed a promotion or two is a very good indication that indeed it may be time to move towards this selfless act of simply passing on my knowledge and help the continuing growth of Women’s Jiu-Jitsu.
~ Believe ~