Doing What I Love

At one time all I really wanted to do was compete and do MMA fights, but that was a long time ago (2009-2010). I have collected medals and chased tournaments and even walked away from BJJ. I’m coming back to what I love to do and this time it is completely different because I am not searching for those medals or to be a “name in the sport”, I am doing this for me. I have to believe that this sport does something that nothing else can, it changes lives!

I had a trophy case of my medals hanging on a wall in my home and about two weeks ago I took it down and put away my medals. I do not need to be reminded of what I was or what I once thought were key points in my BJJ journey. I was asked recently when my next tournament was and I laughed and said, “I’m done… I wont compete again.” The look of shock and DA-FUQ was priceless… but let’s face it I’m not on those mats because I need to prove anything to anyone. I am there because I made a promise to myself to NOT GIVE UP and do what I LOVE to do and that is all.

I collected two gold medals as a newly promoted blue belt, 1 silver, and 1 bronze and a few tournaments that I did not place. I am comfortable with what I was able to achieve and can smile when I look back at that… Blue Belt – PERSEVERANCE.

I refuse to be another Blue Belt casualty and quit.

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Tomorrow

Keep Training

The holiday season is upon us and while many are travelling to see loved one’s I have decided that now is when I want to make my return to BJJ. I knew this would be hard, I knew it would probably hurt a little but I still went to class. I am starting to think that I completely underestimated how much it would hurt. My son, who plays football said, Mom, I know how you feel it is how I feel the first week of football practice and you always tell me that I have to keep moving or my legs would feel worse. And my husband said, “Suck it up princess… you need to keep moving your legs”. Now honestly, I really thought about starting a weight training program to get ready for BJJ, but that never happened. My kids are out on Thanks Giving break so I did not go to class this afternoon. Really wish I could have because even though I was wobbling around the house and in public, I know for a fact that once I stepped onto the mats that pain would have dissipated and I would have gone through drill after drill after drill. Those mats are magical like that, it doesn’t matter how you feel or what is going on, once you take that first step it is all just an after thought and you get to work. No hesitation, No whining you just get your ass up and get out there and WORK HARD.

I was thinking that my come back will be tougher and harder mentally and physically than any fight or tournament I have ever gone through, that this will be a test of all tests. Kicking bad habits and self-rehab sounds kind of silly after these past few days and honestly that is why I love my BJJ so much.

I am definitely STRONGER than I was yesterday, but

not as STRONG as I will be TOMORROW!

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~You do not have to be Great to Start, but you have to START to become Great~

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My legs are sore

I got back on the mats and went to my first noon-er class 11/24/2014. It was just as awkward as I had anticipated. At first I was the only student and I was thinking SWEET I’m gonna get out of a monster warm-up! Nope, not even close… I got the full onslaught of the warm-up and when another student arrived we drilled, knee on belly passing spider for like… fore-v-e-r… Today, my legs are mush. I soaked in some Epson salt last night and stretched and stretched some more but no my legs are definitely sore. Problems after knee on belly drills, issues with putting on a pair of socks, pants and forget about sitting on the toilet… more like FALL ON THE TOILET!! As I was walking the kids to school, I kept thinking I bet I looked really weird walking all stiff legged and barely able to bend my knees… gotta love the knee on belly drills.

I really enjoyed the class and although nothing was new, my reactions were definitely slower and my cardio is completely shot, to be honest a baby could probably roll longer than me. This is all good because it gives me something to work towards, and give myself a goal of not gassing out past 2 minutes of rolling and actually ROLLING not floppy dogging it.

Anyways, I was able to get some video and make a short YouTube for the gym. I was wanting to do this a while back, but always forgot my camera and yesterday just worked out where I could get some shots in. So here is a short clip featuring yours truly!

The Mats Are Calling

Moving Forward sometimes requires a few steps backwards...

Moving Forward sometimes requires a few steps backwards…

This year has been full of emotional and private issues that ultimately reflected on my BJJ. We all know it is taboo to bring negativity onto the mats and like any wise old woman, I stayed away. However, things are starting to turn around and my soul is finally returning to a peaceful state. It is funny, this thing called life that throws curve balls that you can’t see and they end up smacking you in the face… it is even funnier when you threw the ball at yourself to begin with. Yeah… priceless. While I dodged the “rehab” bullet and forwent my own form of self cleansing, I do realize that I have taken a huge step backwards in my health and moving forward will be a mental battle. Slipping back into my Gi will not be easy and I’m really worried that my old lady joints and muscle will be a huge factor now. My lungs took the hardest hit and with a bum knee I am not sure how I will get my cardio back up.

In the past I have rolled to either prove I was a “bad ass”, and or capable of being promoted… but now, all I want to do is prove to myself that I did not and will not give up. I will gladly be a 10 year blue belt who simply loves to roll and who does not compete but just enjoys the sport. Motivation is there, the will is there… let’s see if I can just

Keep Rolling.

~You do not have to be Great to Start, but you have to Start to become Great~

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